Thinking Positive vs. Being a Fake Bitch
Being positive is the new trend - everywhere - to the point where I’m convinced some folks get a high off being pretentious, fake bitches.
Being positive means learning to overcome your own battles, seeing the silver lining instead of the dark cloud looming overhead. Being realistic about your situation, but still having optimism about the future. Not putting on this whole clownish escapade about how wonderful your life is even though you just got evicted from your apartment and got nothing but some change in your pocket and the clothes that you’re wearing right now with nowhere to go.
Some people take it to the extreme where they regurgitate cliches, images, or videos to show how great they are with their exaggerated, one-sided “positive” view on life — condescending those who experience any other emotions besides happiness or joy.
Sometimes, I want to tell them to shut the fuck up. You can tell when someone is privileged and comfortable vs. someone who’s gone through shit.
Those who’ve gone through shit and prevailed, say it differently. They emit positive energy, without putting on a fake show. They share their story. They relate. They know what it’s like to suffer, to be down on your luck. They listen. And they motivate in a caring, thoughtful manner.
I’ve observed this positive trend long enough to tell the difference and I’m at the point where I have no more tolerance. Just wanted to get this off my chest.
I made wine from the lilac tree
Put my heart in its recipe
It makes me see what I want to see
And be what I want to be
hey there, long time fan and blog reader. just wanted to say that if what youre really experiencing thoughts about giving up & suicide, dont do it. i know of an unfortunate amount of young, promising people who took their lives because they felt there was nothing worth living for. i think everyone has had thoughts about suicide, and i know ive gone through some tough times but somehow i managed to snap out of it, and i hope you can too. im going to Liberia soon for the Peace Corps, so i probably — waterbbq
so i probably wont be able to read much anymore, but i wish you the best and hope you dont give up! PS, if you are feeling really really down, just call here 1-800-273-TALK (8255). remember, death is permanent, barring the zombie apocalypse. — waterbbq
Thank you. Good luck on your journey to Liberia and with the Peace Corps.
I Don’t Know
Some days, I feel like giving up. Giving up on this whole dream chasing and live life like a normal person. But I have given up so much that I have nothing left except the hopeful eyes behind me, hoping I’ll catch that dream and show it to them. I cry myself to sleep often, wondering how I’ll make it, how much more do I have to wait. It’s a long and winding - and extremely -lonely road. I rarely smile nowadays. Somedays, I want to kill myself. But I don’t know.
I don’t know…
As a songwriter, I find my biggest strengths in writing hooks. Verses are usually hit or miss depending on the day. While bridges, sadly, are my worst nightmares.